Posted: Thu Apr 07, 2005 2:03 am
Donovan returns Shale's salute, waits for the others to leave, and then makes his way to the door.
On his way out of the room, Donovan couldn't help but notice the strangeness of it all. The sight of Robin, who had dealt her child to darkness to save her friends, mothering Eli, a boy whose depression was caused by his mother's death, struck a powerful chord in him. Seeing the two of them huddled there in the ruined room, clinging to each other in their shared grief, was somehow symbolic to him. That was the essence of Haven, a few tattered souls grasping at one another with destruction all around them.
Let them find comfort in each other, he thought. It is a far better thing for them than being alone. There was enough of lonliness in the world, enough of sorrow.
Quietly closing the door, he ventured one last glance at the woman and her adoped son. How many more times would Eli scream in despair at the death of his mother? How many more times would duty demand the blood of his friends? Donovan's eyes turned down the hallway to Shale and Ug as they made their way downstairs. No one was absolutely right here, and no one was absolutely wrong. Everyone was doing what they thought best for the protection of Haven.
Flashing Drake a salute and a knowing "as you were" nod, Donovan made his way back down the stairs and into the Phoenix Hall. He sat at his table behind a stack of notes, charts, maps, and reports and took a long drink from one of Lambic's best brews. He could feel the frustration and rage winding like a spring in his chest. Just when they were on the verge of bringing things together, darkness threatened to rip everything apart. Again they had rallied to fight back a coming apocalypse, and again they had been betrayed. Now the arcane work of wizards and dragons was poised to destroy the product of so much toil and sacrifice.
His hand tightened around the bottle as his mind went racing through the struggles they had faced in their short time in Haven. Wizards, beastmen, lizardmen, warlords, masters, armies of men and Ga'vin, false kings, wood wraiths, bleeding trees, evil druids, necromancers, fleshcrafters and their followers, ancient killers, tyrants from the north, spirits from the past, the random re-arrangement of the land, invincible worms, ant hordes, the erratic shifting of time, waves of undead, dark elf slavers, dwarven blood oaths, plague villages, vampires, dark fey, bloodletting farmers, oversized moles, animated statues, flesh golems of all shapes and sizes, and a world-ending prophecy that includes the machinations of at least three dragons and a being from the dawn of time.
Donovan took another long drink.
Oh, the Dragons were great and powerful beasts, ancient beyond reckoning, nearly perfect in their grace - yet they turned to him in their hour of need. How many would he lose this time? Brant was gone already. Valane, Ethos, August, Brikal, and Curufin were on assignments from which they might never return. Kabre was still unstable in his new body, Drake was wearing yet another skin, and just this moon he nearly lost Ian, Chargoth, and DarKarath.
The spring in his chest wound even tighter as the frustration mounted. Time and again they were pawns in the games of mysterious forces. Time and again fools with spellbooks incurred debts that only the blood of good men could repay. They ripped the world apart with their eldritch scheming, and it always fell to them to patch it up again.
All this, and still we fight amongst ourselves, he thought. First with the Orcs, then almost with the Gryffins, then Roland, and now Robin's deal with what may be Narnian poses to pit the future Duchess against the High Magus and a member of our Council. Oh, and with Corbyn absent, I'm calling the shots... again.
He swore the next person who accused him of being power hungry was going to end up missing a limb. Yet, this was a task he would wish upon no other. He knew things that would stop the hearts of common men, secrets that had no business being told. But he had to know them to know how to fight them. It was his burden to bear.
Setting the empty bottle down on his table, Donovan stood and walked out of the Hall. He passed out of the Inn and into the night air. Not so long ago he had let the enormity of it all overwhelm him and he had become something he must not become. Drawing Lightstorm, he fell into first of the sword forms. Steel blurring in the moon light, he let the smooth rhythm of his blade steal his thoughts away.
On his way out of the room, Donovan couldn't help but notice the strangeness of it all. The sight of Robin, who had dealt her child to darkness to save her friends, mothering Eli, a boy whose depression was caused by his mother's death, struck a powerful chord in him. Seeing the two of them huddled there in the ruined room, clinging to each other in their shared grief, was somehow symbolic to him. That was the essence of Haven, a few tattered souls grasping at one another with destruction all around them.
Let them find comfort in each other, he thought. It is a far better thing for them than being alone. There was enough of lonliness in the world, enough of sorrow.
Quietly closing the door, he ventured one last glance at the woman and her adoped son. How many more times would Eli scream in despair at the death of his mother? How many more times would duty demand the blood of his friends? Donovan's eyes turned down the hallway to Shale and Ug as they made their way downstairs. No one was absolutely right here, and no one was absolutely wrong. Everyone was doing what they thought best for the protection of Haven.
Flashing Drake a salute and a knowing "as you were" nod, Donovan made his way back down the stairs and into the Phoenix Hall. He sat at his table behind a stack of notes, charts, maps, and reports and took a long drink from one of Lambic's best brews. He could feel the frustration and rage winding like a spring in his chest. Just when they were on the verge of bringing things together, darkness threatened to rip everything apart. Again they had rallied to fight back a coming apocalypse, and again they had been betrayed. Now the arcane work of wizards and dragons was poised to destroy the product of so much toil and sacrifice.
His hand tightened around the bottle as his mind went racing through the struggles they had faced in their short time in Haven. Wizards, beastmen, lizardmen, warlords, masters, armies of men and Ga'vin, false kings, wood wraiths, bleeding trees, evil druids, necromancers, fleshcrafters and their followers, ancient killers, tyrants from the north, spirits from the past, the random re-arrangement of the land, invincible worms, ant hordes, the erratic shifting of time, waves of undead, dark elf slavers, dwarven blood oaths, plague villages, vampires, dark fey, bloodletting farmers, oversized moles, animated statues, flesh golems of all shapes and sizes, and a world-ending prophecy that includes the machinations of at least three dragons and a being from the dawn of time.
Donovan took another long drink.
Oh, the Dragons were great and powerful beasts, ancient beyond reckoning, nearly perfect in their grace - yet they turned to him in their hour of need. How many would he lose this time? Brant was gone already. Valane, Ethos, August, Brikal, and Curufin were on assignments from which they might never return. Kabre was still unstable in his new body, Drake was wearing yet another skin, and just this moon he nearly lost Ian, Chargoth, and DarKarath.
The spring in his chest wound even tighter as the frustration mounted. Time and again they were pawns in the games of mysterious forces. Time and again fools with spellbooks incurred debts that only the blood of good men could repay. They ripped the world apart with their eldritch scheming, and it always fell to them to patch it up again.
All this, and still we fight amongst ourselves, he thought. First with the Orcs, then almost with the Gryffins, then Roland, and now Robin's deal with what may be Narnian poses to pit the future Duchess against the High Magus and a member of our Council. Oh, and with Corbyn absent, I'm calling the shots... again.
He swore the next person who accused him of being power hungry was going to end up missing a limb. Yet, this was a task he would wish upon no other. He knew things that would stop the hearts of common men, secrets that had no business being told. But he had to know them to know how to fight them. It was his burden to bear.
Setting the empty bottle down on his table, Donovan stood and walked out of the Hall. He passed out of the Inn and into the night air. Not so long ago he had let the enormity of it all overwhelm him and he had become something he must not become. Drawing Lightstorm, he fell into first of the sword forms. Steel blurring in the moon light, he let the smooth rhythm of his blade steal his thoughts away.